Allah puts us in such deep waters to test us. His way of sifting the extraordinary out of the ordinary. You are extraordinary. He loves you and wants to take you to new heights. You just have to be patient and keep your prayers stronger. Life is a BIG struggle. Afterlife is reaping the rewards of the struggle. You can do it, He is with you, the angels are with you, and I am with you. You will never walk alone. Keep smiling :)